Have you ever looked in a mirror and wondered who you are?
I mean really wondered. So many times I’ll step out of the shower, towel myself off, and turn to the mirror and be like – who is this guy? I’ll look at him and wonder what’s going on in his head. That might sound sort of crazy, but I actually do that. Why? Because I don’t always feel like I know myself.
All too often I wonder what in the world I want to do with my life. The constant curiosity is both a blessing and a curse. This uncertainty of what I want to do has caused me to hop from job to job over the past six years. Some of them have been great, but I still can’t seem to find the one that feels like its filling the purpose I want to fill. Its clear there’s still a lot I have to learn about myself.
I think we all fall victim to this, though. We get so busy judging the outside world that we don’t take the time to become acquainted with ourselves. Which makes me wonder – why don’t we ask ourselves those important questions more frequently? What do I want to do with my life? Where am I going in this career? What are my intentions with this relationship?
This is the kind of stuff I can’t stop thinking about. Everything we do should have a purpose, no? Or are we instead supposed to find an idle wave and catch it as it glides past to see where it takes us? Spontaneity is good in moderation, I suppose, but I prefer being able to plan and anticipate.
We all have a different approach to life, which is one thing that makes living so great. Personally, I like to think that every action I take has a specific purpose. Some people prefer to take life one day at a time and deal with things as they present themselves. I respect that. To each their own.
I think the over arching point to this post is that we all need to understand ourselves. We need to ask ourselves those visceral questions – because you can learn a lot about yourself if you do. Here’s a fun exercise – look in the mirror and ask yourself:
What am I doing with my life?
What do I care about?
Am I significant?