The sand, the dirt, the grass, the trees
The sticks, the stones, the light, the breeze
The things this world has made for me
Have warmed my heart and set me free
I look at the stars as I rest on my knee
They twinkle and spark, this light that I see
I gaze at them wondering, what could they be?
As I listen to waves hit the rocks under me
So calm it all is, out here with the leaves
No fear of the world, or it’s warriors and thieves
My mind is at rest, this feeling I’ve sought
A needed reprieve from the torment I’ve thought
The darkness within isn’t something I share
I keep it behind the false mask that I wear
It’s not that I’ve feigned, and not that I’ve lied
I just don’t want to release all the pain that’s inside
I want to be happy
I just want to live
Her death, it has gripped me
And it’s hold will not give
My words carry weight
Of this, I know
But now I see nothing
Through her bedroom’s window
It used to be filled
With her smile, her love
As she watched us all playing
With a ball and a glove
Those days are all gone now
And it hurts me so much
Please take this away, God
Please heal me, your touch
I don’t care if they read this
It’s my only escape
These pages have saved me
From a much harsher fate
I beg you, my Father
If you truly are there
To take this away
And heal my despair
These words that I’m writing
They’re the realest I’ve penned
I beg of you, God
Will I see her again?
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